Brad Smith (jesus_h_biscuit) wrote,
Brad Smith

All I want is to have my peace of mind...

I really feel good right now. Not allergies, those still suck - and I haven't had a really good night's sleep in several days. I mean internally, in my mind and in my heart. D and I have seemingly found our groove again after a short absence that was really starting to wear us both down. We're about to celebrate our 5th anniversary on the 21st, which will consequently be the Saturday we get to spend in Atlanta with our extended family of friends for the wedding of arie and zarchanalin - and I'll get to finally meet people I have wanted to give big full body, soul warming hugs to for ages now - rahaeli, erin, kyra, malerin, and will again get to see and give big lovins to bubba and swerved (LIES!! ALL LIES!!) HA!! - SO EXCITED!! Our anniversary dinner is going to be spent in Atlanta, with good friends and as guests of a fantastic occasion.

I got to spend all last week with my babies, which was more wonderful than I can even really explain.

yellowmono has really taken off and started doing amazing things after being in a serious funk for longer than she knew, and I'm totally proud of her. I know that eventually she'll be back down this way to live again, and that's going to be great having her close by. She's on a journey right now and has to accomplish more for herself before she can do that, and I understand. It's funny, we talk so often these days on the phone that I've had to give her a special ringer. Best of all is that 5 seconds into every call (all of which tend to last hours) one of us is going "OH MY GOD, you're never going to believe what happened to me today...", usually punctuated with "this was too funny!"

We have a new little one about to grace our family, baby Willow is stirring up quite a lot of fuss in daisy_down's tummy and we're anticipating she'll be here by the next full moon. Our contingency plan is already mapped out and the hospital bag is packed and ready to go, so now it's just a waiting game. It will be great having a new baby again, it's been long enough without one.

I'm starting to feel centered and content again - now if that other area within the family can just get resolved (a new home waiting to be found for near and dear ones and an ease of stress) I can stop feeling so burdened with my own stressors and worries. I know it will, it's just a matter of it coming together.
Tags: family, introspection

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