ecstatic
There's not a lot I want for myself, there never really has been. I want better things for people than they want for themselves - which is how I define loving someone. I want the people I love to know that I love them because I show it and prove it by examples, even when they're not exactly obvious. I want to leave the world a better place than I found it. I want my life to be such that when people to think of me, the first things they think of are how thoughtful, compassionate, and helpful I am because I try very hard to be all of those things. I try not to complain for myself and accept that the things I don't have aren't as important as the things I do have. I want to be a good man who does not accept mediocrity and tries very hard to be better tomorrow than I was today. I want to help (wherever I can) anyone who truly deserves it, and I want to continue speaking out on issues I feel are important for the future because it's my Band-Aid for the world.It's been almost two months since Elissa died, and I've gotten a lot of hits to my main post about her. A lot has happened and I've met some truly wonderful and amazing people through association with Elissa, and it has made me feel a lot of ease in accepting her death.
I am thrilled to announce that very soon the Elissa Hadley Foundation will be up and running, and that I will be the designer and maintainer of the website. I am so overwhelmed with joy at what can and will be achieved in Elissa's name with this organization, and cannot remember a time when I felt this accomplished and proud.
It is all but indescribable knowing I'm going to be a part of something so innately good, let alone knowing how thrilled she would be to know what is being done in her name. She totally wouldn't get the impact she's had because that's just not who she was, but I know she would be very pleased. Everytime I think about it, I cannot help but cry. Primarily because I am happy to have another vehicle to generate goodness and positivity in the world, but also because it came at a tremendous price I wish we never had to pay. The motivation for where this is going and what will be done is incredible, but the catalyst for it - very bittersweet.
