Brad Smith (jesus_h_biscuit) wrote,
Brad Smith


My niece Amber just came by for a visit before she left for her last day of work at The Gap in the mall, she turns 19 tomorrow and is leaving for college in the morning. I am SO proud of her it is unreal.

We talked on the phone last night and I told her I was sorry for not being around more when she was younger - but she stopped me and told me that she wasn't sorry because we had a fantastic relationship and that she knew I'd always been there for her and always would be. Such a phenominal creature, this child.

You have to understand how protective I feel over her. It goes back to when she was in diapers and I used to take care of her and babysit her and her brother Josh, or when I would spend weekends with them just to be near them. That baby would crawl up into my lap and go right to sleep when NO ONE else could put her down. Her father is my brother; my sorry assed, racist piece of shit brother whom I do not claim and have in fact declared as being dead to me. My hatred of him knows no bounds and I have several reasons for this. He left me to die once, for a start...

She's worked since she was legally able to - actually, she babysat long before she turned 16, so she has been working for quite a while now that I think about it. She bought her own first car, she just traded it in on a brand new 2002 Saturn. Now she's leaving to go to college and already has a job there before she's even moved into her dorm room. And tomorrow morning she turns 19...

It started when she hugged me goodbye and backed out of the driveway... And while I'm very proud and deliriously happy for her, I cannot quit crying.
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