I want to stop feeling like a bomb is about to go off again and I have nowhere safe to hide.
I want to spend an entire day where I don't have to feel like a complete fucking failure in one respect or another.
I want to stop feeling like I could get away from all of this with just a simple shot from a complicated needle, even though I'd never do that again.
I want to be able to hear the same words of encouragement I give others without them just being a reminder of everything that is wrong instead of the lift they're supposed to be.
I want my fucking life back.