Brad Smith (jesus_h_biscuit) wrote,
Brad Smith

It's GOT to get better...

I give it a week before I start considering seppuku.

Friday and Saturday were wonderful, just what I needed. Then it all came to a screeching, unplanned halt. Yeah. Not getting into all of that.

Sunday sucked, except for the one hour after dinner that was shared with a new friend who helped make things better. He's very good at that sort of thing, we're discovering.

I'm having major issues right now with people. On the way home yesterday in frustration from all the events of this summer that have been so hard on me all leading up to one particular thing, and in nervous anticipation of the shit I knew we'd have to deal with once we got home, I broke down and cried my eyes out like I haven't done in a long, long time with D holding my hand. I was fighting tears all morning long anyway, they got the better of me halfway home. Then we made it to Dad's house, where he and Tina informed us of new developments within this shitstorm that set me off and I exploded, just flipped my lid. I think I cried more yesterday than I did when I lost both my grandmothers and my uncle in the same month.

This upcoming weekend will be spent in seclusion, just me and D holed up in his loft. I'll probably catch up a lot on LJ stuff, finally return all replied comments, and make new posts. Possibly even a new video post, we'll see.

Send me energy, everyone - I need back some of what I give away so freely.
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