Today I am spending time with Cole, so I'm not really writing much as he gets put before anything of mine. He is at this moment making the sofa warm for us to watch "Gremlins", which he has never seen before. I am taking this opportunity to write before the movie gets going, and am putting in the lyrics to the 3 songs that bleed, sweat, and breathe my current state of mind. All for now, more later most likely.
Free Man - Angie Aparo
Hey, wouldn't you want to know everywhere that a river flows to right now I can show you how 'Cause someday you might wanna go Someday you got nothing to show for all your pain for all your chains
I ain't saying it's the only way but wouldn't you like to know How it feels to live like a free man To give when there's nothing in your hand Run like only the river can Like a free man
You've only got so many roads to choose Sooner or later the ones you use They look all the same Someday you might feel the need Someday when you're tired of bleeding for someone else You're gonna want it for yourself I ain't saying it's the only way but wouldn't you like to know...
Hammer And A Nail - Indigo Girls
Clearing webs from a hovel a blistered hand on the handle of a shovel I've been digging too deep, I always do I see my face on the surface I look a lot like narcissus a dark abyss of an emptiness standing on the edge of a drowning blue
I look behind my ears for the green and even my sweat smells clean glare off the white hurts my eyes I gotta get out of bed and get a hammer and a nail learn how to use my hands not just my head I think myself into jail now I know the refuge never grows from a chin in a hand and a thoughtful pose gotta tend the earth if you want a rose
I had a lot of good intentions sit around for fifty years and then collect a pension started seeing the road to hell and just where it starts But my life is MORE than a vision the sweetest part is acting after making a decision I started seeing the whole as a sum of it's parts
My life is part of the global life I'd found myself becoming more immobile when I'd think a little girl in the world can't do anything A distant nation my community A street person my responsibility If I have a care in the world I have a a gift to bring
Watershed - Indigo Girls
Thought I knew my mind like the back of my hand the gold and the rainbow but nothing panned out as I planned They say only milk and honey's gonna make your soul satisfied Well I better learn how to swim 'cause the crossing is chilly and wide
Twisted guard rail on the highway broken grass on the cement A ghost of someone's tragedy how recklessly my time has been spent They say that it's never too late but you don't get any younger Well I better learn how to starve the emptiness and feed the hunger
Up on the watershed standing at the fork in the road You can stand there and agonize until your agony is your heaviest load You'll never fly as the crow flies get used to a country mile When you're learning to face the path at your pace every choice is worth your while
And there's always retrospect when you're looking back to light a clearer path every five years or so I look back on my life and I have a good laugh You start at the top go full circle round catch a breeze - take a spill but ending up where I started again makes me want to stand still
Stepping on a crack breaking up and looking back Every tree limb overhead seems to sit and wait until every step you take becomes a twist of fate