I would give anything, anything at all to believe in God right now. The one thing he needs me for, and I am completely useless to him.
If she goes before I can get there, I hope he's with her - I cannot bear the idea of her going alone. All I want right now is to be where the family is, and to breathe.
I'll miss you, my sweet, precious Granny. I hope I'm wrong and that there IS a heaven. My world is about to be a colder place without you in it. I can still feel your arms around me.