We were laying there on my bed and I was holding him. I was thinking about how completely overwhelmed I was by the moment and the circumstances, and it happened. He looked me in the eye and kissed me and asked me what I was thinking... I looked him back in the eye and replied, "I don't have the words".
He's in Atlanta right now visiting a friend and seeing some people he's known for a while for the weekend. He told me that he was going to miss me while he was gone and I gave him my t-shirt I had been wearing that smelled like me and told him not to miss me too much - miss me just enough. He gave me the ring that he wears so I could do the same. I've been spinning it around my finger all night long.
It's strange in that it ISN'T strange how completely comfortable I am. Yes, it's only been a few days and I have a lot to learn and a lot to teach - but for the moment I'm very content. I would just rather we had more time. I'd rather have him with me doing absolutely nothing right now than being anywhere doing anything in the world that I could be doing. In a way, it's just as well for this weekend, I'm either at the station or at Riverfest and there wouldn't be any leftover time for me.
Finally, I meet someone that would actually consent to be seen with me in public. And would want to actively spend time with the people most important to me. And who understands how I feel about Maggie and Nathan and Cole. Someone Shane would have thought highly of and approved of for me.
I'm not sure what I did to be this lucky, but I'm grateful. Have a good weekend and come home safely on Sunday - I'll be the one waiting and grinning like the Cheshire Cat...
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