June 30th, 2008

"...just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year..."

Title: "because i need you now more than ever"
Date: 12.31.06

For those who don't know, this was the last picture ever taken of my best friend Shane. He hit a homerun, then began having seizures as he crossed home plate. He never regained consciousness and was dead on arrival at the emergency room. It happened on June 30, 2000.

The thing about grief is it never goes away, but eventually you learn to live with it. I've long since accepted his death and am doing fine with it, but I've had a really amazing year and this anniversary is a reminder that I'm happier than I have ever been in my life now, but Shane never got the chance to meet Damien - my reason for it. That, coupled with the fact that conversely Damien will never meet Shane makes sadness well up in me again, but I'm quick to accept the reality and not give in to that sort of stuff too much anymore.

Saturday was the 22 year anniversary that my childhood best friend Staci committed suicide, but I've compartmentalized that one. She was only 14 years old and I don't think she knew enough about the world or how to fight and be tenacious, how to dig in your heels despite the obstacles and persevere. Relatively speaking, she was just a baby - so I cannot be angry with her anymore.

I'm okay, and I have lots to do today to make me productive and purposeful. Besides that - I'm very happy in my life in general, and I have much to be grateful for. My sadness is being replaced with something far more substantial, which I never saw coming, and it's quite amazing. I've said for years now that I could never really be happy without having all my lost loves ones here to share it with. Since I don't believe in an afterlife, I don't believe that they are still with me in any sense beyond my memories, so it has been a learning process for me to find out what I can live with - and I think I finally have.

All of this having been said, I would trade the last year of my life for one more with them.
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Contrary To The Baseless Assertions Of Some...

Yes, global warming is to blame for this

Newsweek: More scientists say increase in '100-year' weather events due to human activity.
TECHNOLOGY | TRUE OR FALSE: Global Warming Is a Cause of This Year’s Extreme Weather

It's almost a point of pride with climatologists. Whenever someplace is hit with a heat wave, drought, killer storm or other extreme weather, scientists trip over themselves to absolve global warming. No particular weather event, goes the mantra, can be blamed on something so general. Extreme weather occurred before humans began loading up the atmosphere with heat-trapping greenhouse gases such as carbon dioxide. So this storm or that heat wave could be the result of the same natural forces that prevailed 100 years ago—random movements of air masses, unlucky confluences of high- and low-pressure systems—rather than global warming.

This pretense has worn thin. The frequency of downpours and heat waves, as well as the power of hurricanes, has increased so dramatically that "100-year storms" are striking some areas once every 15 years, and other once rare events keep returning like a bad penny. As a result, some climatologists now say global warming is to blame. Rising temperatures boost the probability of extreme weather, says Tom Karl, director of the National Climatic Data Center and lead author of a new report from the Bush administration's Climate Change Science Program; that can "lead to the type of events we are seeing in the Midwest." There, three weeks of downpours have caused rivers to treat their banks as no more than mild suggestions. Think of it this way: if once we experienced one Noachian downpour every 20 years, and now we suffer five, four are likely man-made.

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This Week In Douchebaggery

This Week In Douchebaggery
Pronunciation: \'düsh 'bag\
Function: noun
Etymology:. French, from Italian doccia, from docciare to douche, from doccia water pipe, probably back-formation from doccione conduit, from Latin duction-, ductio means of conveying water, from ducere to lead

1 (douche) a: a jet or current of liquid (as a cleansing solution) directed against or into a bodily part or cavity (as the vagina) b: an act of cleansing with a douche.
2. An individual who has an over-inflated sense of self worth, compounded by a low level of intellegence, behaving ridiculously in front of colleagues with no sense of how moronic he appears.
3. Someone who has surpassed the levels of jerk and asshole, however not yet reached fucker or motherfucker.

1. You are a douchebag.
2. I hate douchebags.

Douchebag Du Jour | Rep. James Fagan (D-Massachusetts)
Why He's A Douchebag | A Taunton criminal defense attorney, Fagan recently argued on the House floor against Jessica's Law, a measure that would set mandatory minimum sentences for child rapists.
Crimes Of Douchebaggery | "Let me tell you why it's so wrong," said Fagan (D-Taunton). "It's so wrong because in these situations . . . that 6-year-old is going to sit in front of me, or somebody far worse than me and I'm going to rip them apart. I'm going to make sure that the rest of their life is ruined. That when they're 8 years old they throw up; when they're 12 years old, they won't sleep. When they're 19 years old they'll have nightmares and they'll never have a relationship with anybody. And that's not because I'm a nice guy. That's because when you're in court, and you're defending somebody's liberty, and you're facing a mandatory sentence of those draconian proportions, you have to do every single thing you can do on behalf of your client. That is your obligation as a trial lawyer."
Most Recent Display Of Flagrant Douchebaggery | See video below. Mark Lunsford, the father of a slain Florida girl pushing for mandatory prison time for child rapists in the Bay State, weighs in here.

Rep James Fagan (D-Taunton) On Jessica's Law

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