May 13th, 2007

I say this with love and all seriousness...

There is a reason why I make 60% (give or take) of my posts public - it is because there are people who actively choose to read them. That having been said, I'm going to quickly sum up for you what I had to sum up for someone else who sent me an email calling into question the content of some of my posts as possibly too overstated or bordering on unnecessary. I'll borrow heavily on what my reply was.

Basically, I'm not trying to actively offend anyone, but if indeed I have, FUCK YOU. There are much worse things than being offended by my personal feelings about our government or religion, like having the government and religious institutions in your own country doing their damnedest to make something you love (in this case, my country) rot from within - in the name of God and good patriotism. It pisses me off because I pay attention and I'm not going to be complacent about it. If you want to read the writings of an ostrich whose head is buried in the sand, there are plenty to choose from - you won't find it here.

This is not a place for censorship and constant pleasantries. If you have a problem with something I write, STOP FUCKING READING IT. Or, there's another choice. SUCK IT THE MOTHERFUCK UP, GET OVER YOURSELF, & LET'S MOVE ON, SHALL WE?

This is as good as it gets, people. I'm not always a nice person, and I'm not always angry and ranting either. I speak my mind as I choose and I do so unapologetically. This isn't hard to understand, but I'll dumb it down for those who feel the need to try and make me anyone other than myself. You don't have to agree with any point I make, ever. I don't need anyone's approval or validation to have an opinion of my own. If I'm drinking Kool-Aid, it's because I choose to drink it of my own accord and not because someone led me to it.

Here's the bottom line, really. I use a lot of 'strong' language. It's my way of saying exactly what I mean to say, exactly as I mean to say it. It's nothing but a color palette. If you take strong issue with my manner of expression, then JUST. STOP. READING. IT. Take me off your friends list and be done with it, take some fucking responsibility for yourself instead of whining to me because I take YOUR Lord's name in vain in the phrase "Goddamned, stupid, bullshit war" and it hurts your feelings. Do this and I'll lay off - but don't make this mistake again, because I assure you that you have no idea what hurt feelings are. Get fucked, eat a fat dick and choke, whatever you need to do.

If you knew anything about me at all you'd have known that already - but you know now, dontcha?

In closing, I'll answer your question. Why am I so pissed off right now about the war? THIS is why:



If that doesn't make immediate sense to you, if that image doesn't affect you and make you both heartbroken and completely sickened on every human level possible, then nothing I could ever say to you will ever make a difference anyway and I'll never bother trying. You're a lost cause if that's the case, and I'm not a stupid man - I know when to wash my hands of something and walk away without ever looking back.

If you have any other questions for me on this matter or additional suggestions on how I could better serve the people I am trying to reach, I respectfully request that you ask them of me when you've accomplished 1/10th of what I have in challenging people to think; opening their minds; forcing them to defend a position; getting them involved in a political process; registering 100+ people to cast ANY vote as long as they do so; sitting in on house rules committee meetings in your state capitol and lobbying senators and state representatives by email, letters, notes, barrages of phone calls, and face to face meetings; work with grassroots organizations for civil liberties; and trying to be a voice for people too afraid or disenfranchised to speak. Talk to me when you've picked up the tab for the table of soldiers sitting next to you in a restaurant and done it anonymously as a thank you for their service. Talk you me when you've made sacrifices for them or helped take care of the families they leave home. Talk to me when you know what it feels like to be told you're going to burn forever because of what you do with your own ass (that's no one else's motherfucking business, unless they're participating) by someone so stupid that the only real miracle is that they can conjugate a fucking verb. I've more than earned my right to as many fuck you's, goddamnits, motherfuckers, and the like as I want to use. Even if I haven't, I'm a 36 year old man, bitch - fuck off, just FUCK OFF!

Be who you know you are, that's one of my mottoes. Don't like who you are - change it. Hate your job, change it. Don't like being fat, change it. Don't want to get walked on, change it. I like being me, I don't want to be you or anyone else except maybe a better me - but whomever the better me is is for me to decide. I've said my peace, I hope you heard it. I'm not responsible if you did or didn't, this wasn't about that anyway.

On to other things - sorry to those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about. I'm not going into any more details about this, so don't ask me - I'm done with it and bored of it.

EDIT:

I do suspect (as I have before, being that this is not the first time I've had to deal with this) that this may all be a hoax to yank my chain, but it doesn't change how I feel. I made this post because if you're going to read what I write, know where it is coming from.