January 14th, 2006

I don't believe in God, I only believe in the Devil, even though I know he's dead.

I just woke up a few moments ago from another nightmare, another one about HIM. One of these days, this bullshit will stop. I woke up kicking and crying and scared to death and practically jumped out of the bed, scaring the hell out of D in the process. I'm okay now, about 15 minutes have passed and I'm getting my bearings. My muscles are sore and my throat is on fire from heartburn, which I usually get when I'm upset for some reason. I did my silent/to myself "I'm okay, I'm okay, I'm okay" chanting and now I feel kind of numbed out.

Here it is - I know now what it would take to get me to believe in God. HE would be alive again and I could kill him myself with my bare fucking hands in a public place and anyone looking on would know why and applaud me for it.

I'm okay.

The Goddess - Live

LIVE 12.21.00 [58.1 MB]

01. The Little Drummer Boy
02. At Stake
03. Listen
04. What You Signed Up For
05. The Christians And The Pagans
06. Santa Baby
07. Round & Round
08. By The Skin Of Her Teeth
09. With Me
10. Years
11. That Man They Call Diablo
12. Santa Claus Is Coming To Town
13. Do You Hear What I Hear

LIVE 06.02.01 [54.9 MB]

01. Listen
02. In The Air
03. At Stake
04. That Man They Call Diablo
05. Story Of Your Bones
06. What You Signed Up For
07. Judge
08. Burning Down The House
09. Shift
10. Round & Round
11. Bad Girl's Lament