March 17th, 2005


Last night I was paid a visit by wsbsdrewnelson, whom I haven't seen since the last Sugarland show, and didn't really get to talk to that much even then. It has been a long time since we just sat down and shot the proverbial shit. It made me realize just how much I've missed him, which was good. It also made me realize just how many of my current friends I've either fallen out of touch with or don't get many opportunities to speakto/spend time with, and how sad that makes me when I have a random moment to myself where nobody wants anything from me and I can think about my own stuff. I value my space, and in many instances I respect other people's space and try to give them as much of it as I can and that's what keeps me from constantly beating on people's doors, which I might be doing just to prove that I love them and that I'm always thinking of them even when they might not believe I am. Part of what I value most about LiveJournal is being able to use it as a tool of communication. I wished more of my true friends were on it.

I've been thinking a lot about my friend Melissa, whom I haven't seen in at least four years and have no number for. I cannot remember her married name, so trying to find her in the phone book is impossible. I've been thinking about the people I never know if I'm bothering or imposing on, so I try to maintain a sense of balanced distance and invariably fail in one respect or another. And I think about the others, the ones I took way too long to finally decide I had no love to give anymore once I admitted to myself that they weren't the decent people I expect all of my friends to be. Some by default, some by their actions, some simply because I have no way of dealing with them and it is far too exhaustive to continue trying. I know, we all have friends that make poor choice after poor, disastrously self destructive choice, and the only way to love them is to do it from a distance. I don't even know what category to put them in, I'll call it "radioactive" and leave it at that. I think about Mikki and Monica and Donna and Liz and how much I miss them all, and I don't know how we go for so long without speaking. I think constantly of my parents and the wall I've built around my life to keep them out, and I am so fucking clueless on that subject that I don't know what the hell to do with it. I guard it relentlessly, and if anyone tries to question me on it I get hyperdefensive. It feels like a no win situation, but so much is riding on it - so better I leave it alone, rather than push a button I shouldn't. The last thing I need is to start a nuclear war within my own bloodline.
"And you find that you’ve organised
Your feelings, for people
Who didn’t like you then
And do not like you now"

Dial-A-Cliche - Morrissey
Andrew told me that his romantic relationship with Jennie had finally run its course, but that they were still good friends for as difficult as the adjustment is being to transition into. As soon as he said it I felt sadness for them both, almost four years is a long time to invest into something, especially when the end result is not what you initially hoped it would be. I felt relief when he told me how this has actually made them bettter friends, if nothing else it means I won't worry about them. I stayed up late thnking about how lucky I am that I have the kind of relationship to D that I do. He may not understand me all of the time, which is mutual, but he understands what he needs to understand and that's more than I could have hoped for. I know that no matter what gets thrown at us, priority 1 is making sure we're okay at all costs. Fortunately we're both eager to always be there for the other and make the appropriate sacrifices without having to be asked, provided it's possible.
"You can't always get what you want.
But if you try sometimes
you might find
you get what you need."

You Can't Always Get What You Want - The Rolling Stones
So for anyone who has ever questioned my love for them or wondered why I've fallen out of touch, I ask you to remember that I'm human and fallible just like all of us. Life stuff happens, there are many reasons - sometimes I even get strung up for someone else's sin. The point is that I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel I didn't care in my absence. Allow me to make it up to you by pointing it out, and remember that occaisionally being thoughtless is not the worst thing I could do. Perhaps it's not that I"m not talking to you, but rather that you aren't talking to me. Either way, it's all unnecessary and you should know better of me. If not, call me on it and we'll go from there. If I'm at fault, I'll be the first to apologize. If I'm not, and you come at me with some bullshit, well you should know me better than that too. Your move, folks...
"Just wise owl tones no velvet lies
crush her velvet call
Oh Marlene suffer all the fools
who write you on the wall
And hold your tongue about your life
or dead hands will change the plot
Will make your loving sound like snakes
like you were never hot

Hot tears flow as she recounts
her favorite worded token
Forgive me please for hurting so
don't go away heartbroken, no"

Marlene Dietrich's Favourite Poem - Peter Murphy
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Cardinal blasts 'Da Vinci Code'
ROME, Italy (Reuters) -- A top Catholic cardinal has blasted "The Da Vinci Code" as a "gross and absurd" distortion of history and said Catholic bookstores should take the bestseller off their shelves because it is full of "cheap lies."
Source: CNN [Link]
Cardinal Tarcisio Bertone, in an interview with the Milan newspaper Il Giornale, became the highest ranking Italian Churchman to speak out against the book, an international blockbuster that has sold millions of copies.

"(It) aims to discredit the Church and its history through gross and absurd manipulations," Bertone, the archbishop of the northern Italian city of Genoa and a close friend of Pope John Paul II told the paper in its Monday edition.

"This seems like a throwback to the old anti-clerical pamphlets of the 1800s," he said.

The central claim of the book, written by U.S. author Dan Brown, is that Jesus married Mary Magdalene and had children. The Bible says nothing about Jesus' marital status.

Bertone's comments were significant because until the pope named him archbishop of Genoa in 2003 he was for years the number two man at the Vatican's most powerful department -- the Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith.

"You can find that book everywhere and the risk is that many people who read it believe that those fairy tales are real," he said.*** "I think I have the responsibility to clear things up to unmask the cheap lies contained in books like that."

Holy grail

A central storyline of the book is that the Holy Grail is not the cup which Christ is said to have used at the Last Supper but really the bloodline descended from Jesus and Mary Magdalene. Bertone calls this idea "a perversion."

Bertone is so incensed about the novel that he will be the key speaker at a roundtable in Genoa on Wednesday night attempting to dismantle the book, which also accuses the Church of covering up the female role in Christianity.

"I will try to clear things up and help form consciences," the cardinal said.

"I think that when faced with affirmations that are so shameful and unfounded, readers who have even a minimum of basic (Christian) formation should react," he said.

He said it was "sad" that even Catholic bookstores were selling "The Da Vinci Code" "for purely economic reasons."

One bookstore selling "The Da Vinci Code" is the one in the Gemelli Hospital, a Catholic institution where the pope spent a total of 28 days in two stints in February and March.

In the interview, Bertone firmly rejected the book's claim that the feminine role in Christianity had been suppressed.

"This is one of the most vulgar of inventions. The feminine element is present in all the Gospels," Bertone said.

Bertone also strongly defended Opus Dei, the conservative Church organisation which the book depicts as a ruthless, Machiavellian group which resorts even to murder in its attempt to keep the Church's secrets hidden.

The novel is going to reach an even wider audience next year with the release of a film based on the book starring Tom Hanks.
***Am I taking crazy pills, is he talking about the Davinci Code or the Bible?

WTF, are we all going INFUCKINGSANE????????








"Religious freedom is an ideal we support and it can be ensured without hanging non-discrimination laws out to dry," said HRC's David Smith.

WASHINGTON - The Human Rights Campaign expressed concern today about a bill introduced in the House and Senate today that could expand religious rights of some employees while failing to preserve protections against discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation, gender identity or gender expression.

"Religious freedom is an ideal we support and it can be ensured without hanging non-discrimination laws out to dry," said HRC Vice President of Policy David Smith. "We support the goal of securing religious freedom in the workplace, but not without safeguards that should be written into the bill that also ensure it won't be used as a proxy to discriminate against gay, lesbian, bisexual and transgender Americans. This bill would leave significant room to disregard state and local non-discrimination laws, as well as employer policies, allowing some employees to create a hostile climate for their GLBT co-workers and clients."

The Workplace Religious Freedom Act would expand the rights of some employees in the workplace under Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964 in a way that would require employers to engage in efforts to accommodate an employee's religious practices and observances at the expense of other employees' civil rights.

In a letter sent March 15 to members of Congress, the Human Rights Campaign expressed concerns about the ways in which the bill could be used to evade non-discrimination policies.

"The concern here is that employers would have serious difficulty resolving instances where an employee posts a sign reading 'God hates fags' in his office or cubicle; where workers proselytize on the 'sins of the homosexual lifestyle' over lunch and on breaks; where a social worker proffers a religious objection to being the case manager or counselor for a youth who is gay or transgender; or where a truck driver on 24 hour driving shift who gives a religious reason for refusing to drive with an co-driver who is gay, lesbian, bisexual or transgender," wrote HRC's Smith and Christopher Labonte, legislative director. They continued, "WRFA would arguably allow health care professionals to refuse to provide basic health care services to a gay or transgender patient."

"We believe that most religious Americans - including many GLBT people of faith - are fair-minded and this bill is at odds with their values," added Smith. "There is a way to write this legislation so that it's clear that safeguards for non-discrimination are kept in place. We urge members of Congress to address this problem so that the rights of some employees don't infringe on the rights of others."
I really cannot wait for the initial argument that these right wing fucks are going to use that you cannot compare religious freedom to sexuality, because they're going to jump on that "you choose to be gay" bullshit. Fuck that noise, there is evidence to support the genetic basis for inherent sexuality - unlike believing in God, which IS a choice you make. With no evidentiary support to back, only faith.

Fucking FUCK! GAMPAC has more on this.

It just keeps coming...

Florida House Passes Bill That Could Keep Schiavo Alive
TALLAHASSEE, Fla. (AP) -- The state House passed a bill Thursday that could keep Terri Schiavo alive, less than 24 hours before the severely brain-damaged woman's feeding tube is scheduled to be removed.

The Senate began debating a more limited version of the bill as lawmakers rushed to beat the scheduled removal of Schiavo's feeding tube.

The legislative action was part of a last-minute flurry of attempts to save Schiavo's life. Congress was also considering legislation to move the case to the federal courts, Schiavo's parents appealed to the U.S. Supreme Court, and Florida Circuit Court Judge George Greer scheduled a hearing Thursday to consider a request from the state to halt the removal of the tube.

The House bill would block the withholding of food and water from patients in a persistent vegetative state who didn't leave specific instructions refusing the artificial measure. It passed 78-37.Collapse )

Okay, I'm done - before I fucking maim someone, I'm done.

Reid threatens partial Senate shutdown
Parties hurtle toward April clash over Democratic filibusters of Bush judicial nominees
Source: MSNBC [Link]

IAEA chief: N Korea bigger threat
Korea poses more of a nuclear threat than Iran, the director-general of the International Atomic Energy Agency told CNN, because the country already has the nuclear material that would go into a weapon.
Source: CNN [Link]

Gas pump prices jump to record highs
Average price of gas hits $2.055 a gallon, AAA reports
Source: MSNBC [Link]

Senate votes against proposed Medicaid cuts
Vote rejects deficit reduction at expense of benefits program
Source: MSNBC [Link]

House Backs Federal Court Role in Schiavo Case
The U.S. House late on Wednesday approved a bill that would give federal courts the power to hear the case of a brain-damaged Florida woman whose feeding tube is scheduled to be removed on Friday.
Source: Reuters [Link]

To date, there have been 19422 casualties total in the War in Iraq, 1519 of them American.
The War in Iraq currently Costs the United States $156, 706, 628, 088 - as of this posting.

Instead, we could have paid for 20,757,182 children to attend a year of Head Start.
We could have insured 93,842,383 children for one year.
We could have hired 2,715,922 additional public school teachers for one year.
We could have provided 7,597,289 students four-year scholarships at public universities .
We could have built 1,411,088 additional housing units .
We could have fully funded global anti-hunger efforts for 6 years.
We could have fully funded world-wide AIDS programs for 15 years.
We could have ensured that every child in the world was given basic immunizations for 52 years.

In light of this and the egregious and rampant violations of civil and human rights, aren't you glad to know that there is a Congressional Hearing on the use of steroids by professional baseball players Don't you feel safer and more secure as an American citizen?

I'm so fucking livid right now.
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