May 14th, 2003

Holey Moley!

Maggie and Nathan have decided that not this weekend, but next weekend they are going on a 3-day weekend getaway. I asked them if they wanted me to keep the kids, and they asked me what I wanted to do. I told them that for as much as I loved them, that the idea of having a couple of blissfully quiet days with NO ONE here but me was too good an opportunity to pass up. I'm not kidding, it was yet another realization that I'm never alone anymore - there is always someone else there the whole bloody time. So next Thursday, they will stay here with me overnight. Then I'll take Cole to school and keep Avery for probably half the day and then I get down time a l l... b y... m y s e l f...

I get to be lazy and watch as much TV as I want, I get to sleep as long and as late as I want, I get to jump on my bike and go riding without checking with anyone else first, and most of all - I won't have to divide my attention for anyone or anything and constantly be on guard.

This couldn't be coming at a better time, either. I feel completely run down and stressed out, and need the break. Even my "down time" isn't really down time, considering it is nothing more than shutting myself in a room and trying to ignore all of the noise on the other side.

All of that having been said, I'm really looking forward to this Saturday and movie night! We're going to have too much fun. I'm going to be with Damien pretty much all weekend, as Friday night we're watching The Matrix so he can explain to me what the HELL is going on with that movie. Being that my interest in sci-fi type movies is limited to maybe 3 films in my lifetime, I need help. then Saturday we're doing the movie thing at home with friends, and Sunday we're going to see Matrix Reloaded on Sunday. I'm actually looking forward to it, I just have to remind myself to bring my foamy earplug thingys in case it is too loud. Last thing I want is a migraine.

::listens for the collective "AWWW!"::

This is a video I recorded of Avery dancing at Amy & James' wedding this past Saturday. My niece Illeigh was asking me what the thing was attatched to the zipper of the baby's dress. It was a battery operated bug repellant thing. Yes, that's my country ass in the background telling her "It kayps tha buggs awaye!". ::snickers::

All You Wanna Do Is Ride Around Avery... RIIIIDE, AVERY RIDE!!!
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Okay, someone help me out here...

I'm completely depressed now. I was feeling like poo all day anyway, and now it's official. Funny how the stupidest things provoked this one, like American Idol - I really liked Kimberly Locke! Not that I don't like Clay Aiken and Ruben Studdard, mind you...

Then I caught the last of Dawson's Creek - JUST in time to see Jen in a hospital bed holding her daughter and telling Jack that he would make a good father. Then she fucking dies for some reason unknown to me, ripping my heart out. Then Pacey sets Joey free, and rips my heart out further. Then I come to find out Doug really IS gay, and has designs on Jack... Apparently they were a thing before, and they get reunited - AND THEY KISS ON THE BEACH!!!!! GO WB!! Then I find out that Joey and Dawson have a child, though there were two kids running around and I have no idea which one is theirs. They declare their eternal love for one another as soulmates and best friends, but not before Dawson has a vision of Jen arriving in a cab like she did that first day - and that was it, heart completely ripped out, stomped, and frappeed in a cuisinart... Then the perfect ending - Joey and Pacey wind up together (ROCK ON!!), Dawson has produced a series on TV and is about to meet Spielberg finally, and they all talk on the phone.

I have other things going on that account for my current state of mind, but I do not want to go into them. All it will do is upset me and I don't want to even write about them, let alone talk about them so if you care about me, if you really do, let me sort my stuff out in my own way and please - no prodding. It always gets better sooner or later.

Now, for my questions - please give me the answers!

1. What kiled Jen?

2. Who is Jen's baby daddy?

3. Were Doug & Jack together before this episode?

4. When did Doug come out?

5. Where the hell was Andie?

6. Which of the kids was Joey & Dawson's?
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