January 1st, 2003

There's Work To Do...

Today is my precious Cole's 6th birthday, so


Cole!!
I Love You!


I got up shortly after midnight with a bad case of heartburn and found Maggie sitting on the living room floor writing something on paper, there was a calculator beside her as well. I didn't ask. This morning she was still lying in bed, eyes wide open and vacant still. She said her stomach hurt, that she had tried to eat something. I told her to crawl into my bed and rest, it is arm and dark back there and she was alone in the house - that she needed the rest and there was no one she had to be up with or taking care of. She was still there when I left this morning. Nathan is still MIA, and all of this is driving me completely mad.

Physically I feel better than I have in a week, and as far as my nurturing and supportive sides go I have my work cut out for me now. I've decided that for as hard as it is, I'm going to intervene ONLY with the kids and let Maggie sort herself out in her own way and in her own time - and be the minuteman for her in the event that she needs me for something.

I want Mom, Dad, Tina, Renea, & Anjelica to hurry up and get home safely. I'm glad they had getaway time, but I am ready for them to be home.

What a way to start the new year. I already hate it.
  • Current Music
    New Year's Prayer - Jeff Buckley