December 31st, 2002

Ugh.....

I feel horrible, just absolutely horrible. My ear infection (worse in the right) is not clearing up as fast as I want it to, even though it does seem to get better after I've been up for a bit. I'm still blowing my nose and coughing up nastiness every 5 seconds it seems, and generally feeling like crud. Michael was kind enough to offer to work for me this morning, and while I was going to try to go in myself I decided that taking a day off for being sick might benefit me.

I'm home, both kids have had breakfast and my sweetie brought me coffee a little while ago. He got called into work for absolutely nothing, but the damage was done by the time he left so he made a consolatory stop at Dunkin' Donuts so it wouldn't be a wasted outing.

Cole is watching cartoons and Avery is in her room trying to go to sleep. The problem is that she thinks she's going to miss out on something by napping, so she'll lay there for a few seconds and then open her eyes and start flinching and screaming her monkey ass off. If she doesn't get quiet soon, I'm just going to get her up and let her play some more.

I'm worried about Maggie & Cheryl, and sending them both good energy and lots of love. I ask that you all do the same, please. Nathan keeps fucking up even after the fact, and nothing will change that. It is clear that he doesn't care enough about changing (or at least making SOME effort) to keep his family together. He has NO idea how good he's got it, man. Cheryl is in a place I know backwards and forwards, and believe me folks - she's in need of the energy. There is nothing that can be done for either of them, as in these cases even the best of advice is useless. All we can do is offer love, support, patience, understanding, and a shoulder when it is needed. They would do it (and have) for us in a minute, nothing we have going on is so important that we cannot stop long enough to be there for those that always return the favor.

In happier news.....

Margaret Cho - The Revolution Tour 2003
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I feel horrible, just absolutely horrible. My ear infection (worse in the right) is not clearing up as fast as I want it to, even though it does seem to get better after I've been up for a bit. I'm still blowing my nose and coughing up nastiness every 5 seconds it seems, and generally feeling like crud. Michael was kind enough to offer to work for me this morning, and while I was going to try to go in myself I decided that taking a day off for being sick might benefit me.

I'm home, both kids have had breakfast and my sweetie brought me coffee a little while ago. He got called into work for absolutely nothing, but the damage was done by the time he left so he made a consolatory stop at Dunkin' Donuts so it wouldn't be a wasted outing.

Cole is watching cartoons and Avery is in her room trying to go to sleep. The problem is that she thinks she's going to miss out on something by napping, so she'll lay there for a few seconds and then open her eyes and start flinching and screaming her monkey ass off. If she doesn't get quiet soon, I'm just going to get her up and let her play some more.

I'm worried about Maggie & Cheryl, and sending them both good energy and lots of love. I ask that you all do the same, please. Nathan keeps fucking up even after the fact, and nothing will change that. It is clear that he doesn't care enough about changing (or at least making SOME effort) to keep his family together. He has NO idea how good he's got it, man. Cheryl is in a place I know backwards and forwards, and believe me folks - she's in need of the energy. There is nothing that can be done for either of them, as in these cases even the best of advice is useless. All we can do is offer love, support, patience, understanding, and a shoulder when it is needed. They would do it (and have) for us in a minute, nothing we have going on is so important that we cannot stop long enough to be there for those that always return the favor.

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They talked earlier, same crap refried. Nathan left earlier under the guise of going to Subway and then coming right back. He's been gone since and his phone is off. I went in to check on Maggie before I got a shower and she was lying there staring at the ceiling blankly with tears streaming down her face. I let her talk for a bit and then hugged and kissed her goodnight before I left her room. I offered to make her tea and a backrub, she said she just wanted to lie there. She tried calling some folks earlier, no one was around. I told her she should maybe get out for a bit - she told me there was no where to go. After I got out of the shower she told me she was leaving, didn't know where she was going. I told her to leave her cell phone on and keep it with her. Now I'm sitting here tapping into this fucking computer, tired and frustrated, and needing to get to sleep as I have to work in the morning.

So.

Nathan's out doing whatever irresponsible thing, and Maggie is out wandering aimlessly with a big hurt in her heart. And I can do nothing about either thing.

Happy Fucking New Year, folks - be safe and don't be stupid. I'm going to bed now.
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