sickDrew did call earlier to let me know that he was in LA, and that his flight was okay except for the 5 year old that kicked his seat for the duration of the flight. I told him to have a good time and not think about Columbus or anyone in it for the next few days.
I tried to call Kevin once I got to work this morning, but his voicemail got the call. I'm guessing he was also feeling terrible and just went to bed. If he feels ANYTHING like I do, I hope he is asleep and that he takes the day off tomorrow to rest and recover. I'd give anything to be able to watch him sleep right now, and I have NO idea why I would think such a thing.
I really like this guy. He's very much grounded into the same reality that I am, and the more I talk to him the more comfortable I feel instead of the familiar defenses and walls.
Dare I say it? Am I actually giving someone the benefit of the doubt that he might ACTUALLY turn out to be a decent man that is good for me?
I know you're reading this and blushing - you're SO cute when you do that too. I hear it in the phone and I can tell when I've said something that makes you blush. It is in those moments that I wish you were sitting next to me so I could steal a kiss.
For the time being, we both have to work on getting over being ill - and PLEASE know that if I gave this to you, that I am very sorry. What a gift on a first date, huh? I give you the flu, you give me a candle. Which, incidentally, is burning as I type.
I want so many things right now. I'm keeping most of that to myself.
It is noteworthy that if I imagine you sitting across from me and grinning that I can see your sweet face and it makes me feel a lot better. Sleep well - I will call you when I wake up in the afternoon, around 1 or so. Email me or post a comment to this entry, I'm sending you good energy and light.
