Brad Smith (jesus_h_biscuit) wrote,
Brad Smith

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I've been riding my bike at least 6 miles daily for the past 3 days, and will continue this as long as is humanly possible. I'm training for distance, I seriously want to complete the riverwalk ride from the marina at Green Island to Oxbow Meadows before summer. My goal is to do this soon, as it will have to happen early on a Saturday so the heat won't be too intense. It's going to take at least 3-4 hours, I'm thinking. I'm trying to plan a Saturday in May, probably the first Saturday after Avery's birthday.

I have got to lose this extra weight and this extra stomach I've grown, it is depressing me in the worst way. I'm to the point where I cannot even stand to look at myself in the mirror. People tell me I'm full of shit, that I look fine - but that's not the point. It isn't about what anyone else's perception of me is, it's about how I feel about myself. Telling me I look fine is not helping, and it certainly isn't encouraging me to take better care of myself. I admit that 50% of my reasoning is pure vanity, of course I want to look better. The other 50% is health. When I feel better physically, I feel better emotionally and psychologically.

We completed InMotionX last summer... Life is all about challenging and pushing yourself harder.

I will be better. Faster. Stronger. Healthier. Content.

Goddamnit, I want a flat stomach!!

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