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BACK DOOR BOY IN A FRONT DOOR WORLD
OUTSIDE OF SOCIETY - THAT'S WHERE I WANT TO BE
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27th-May-2008 10:40 am
The strangest thing just happened.

I was thinking yesterday that next month will be 22 years ago that my childhood best friend Staci committed suicide and 8 years ago my adult best friend Shane died suddenly from an accidental overdose. They've been on my mind a lot lately and I've been feeling a bit bluer than normal about it. I'm watching an episode of Six Feet Under to boot when I happened to notice something moving in my peripheral vision. I scanned the room for a dust bunny or something moving across the concrete floor of the loft, but instead was greeted by a yellow butterfly! I have no idea how it could have gotten in here, we haven't had the windows open in months and the door to the loft opens into an enclosed hallway.

It disappeared into the guestroom and I couldn't find it for a while, but when I came over to my computer desk it was sitting on the "S" key of my keyboard. I picked it up carefully and took it to the window, and with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat that is still there, blew it two kisses and sent it on to the wind.

It flew away and then came back to the windowpane and is sitting on the window sill as I type this. I don't know what it means if it even means anything at all, but it makes me happy.
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27th-May-2008 02:52 pm (UTC)
Sometimes you have those moments that mean something to no one else but you-but that doesn't make them any less moving. You're lucky if other people can comprehend what's happened and why it means so much to you.

You're still lucky if others don't.

What matters is that at the moment when you needed a gentle reminder that Staci and Shane are ok somewhere, you found what you needed.

Thanks for sharing, ;-)
27th-May-2008 03:12 pm (UTC) - Yes, exactly.
I couldn't have said it any better.
27th-May-2008 03:21 pm (UTC)
You're not the only one with tears in your eyes.
28th-May-2008 02:21 am (UTC)
I love that you're so sentimental, David - it's one of your more crushworthy traits and part of what I love most about you.
27th-May-2008 03:48 pm (UTC)
very cool
28th-May-2008 02:22 am (UTC)
Innit though?
27th-May-2008 04:00 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for sharing that, it is truly beautiful.
28th-May-2008 02:22 am (UTC)
It didn't just stop there, it's been an AWESOME day!
27th-May-2008 04:19 pm (UTC) - just dropping by to say hello...
There is more to this life than we can ever understand or even explain. I wrote of my meetings with butterflies when I'm thinking of my dad. I don't know if you caught that entry:http://salenelle.livejournal.com/698148.html

It happens frequently.
28th-May-2008 02:29 am (UTC) - Re: just dropping by to say hello...
I remember that - what a wonderful thing!
27th-May-2008 04:20 pm (UTC)
That is wonderful! salenelle has several similar stories of visits from butterflies that she just knows are her dad's spirit making a visit. I hope she shares that here. They give you goosebumps just like your story did.
28th-May-2008 02:30 am (UTC)
It really did make me very happy, and I'll never see them again without that same feeling coming back to me again.
27th-May-2008 04:21 pm (UTC)
I'm even a little choked up in reading this. Peace to you, and to their souls.
28th-May-2008 02:34 am (UTC)
It has been such a great day for me, Ian. A really, REALLY great day!
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28th-May-2008 02:34 am (UTC)
Me too!!
27th-May-2008 05:48 pm (UTC)
*hugs*

ANDRE
28th-May-2008 02:35 am (UTC)
Thanks babe!
27th-May-2008 06:04 pm (UTC)
HUGE HUGS!!!!!!!!!
28th-May-2008 02:36 am (UTC)
You wouldn't believe how great my whole day has been!
27th-May-2008 06:04 pm (UTC)
Great Read!! You're a gifted man!! Not many would see what you do!! ::Hugs::
28th-May-2008 02:36 am (UTC)
Thankies, love!
27th-May-2008 08:24 pm (UTC)
i second all said above. i find that butterflies seem to suggest a presence of someone you care about.. they seem to be a kind of messenger. im so glad you got your message.. *hugs*
28th-May-2008 02:48 am (UTC)
It was such an awesome, amazing thing!!
27th-May-2008 08:28 pm (UTC)
Sweetie, it simply means you're loved. By all of us, and by those no longer with you. You are loved. Always remember.
28th-May-2008 02:48 am (UTC)
Thankies, lovey!
27th-May-2008 10:01 pm (UTC)
I love messages from those who touch our hearts just when we need it. On your "S" key and the color yellow. Very powerful. All that represents love in your life from the beginning of tender friendships and relationships. You released them yet again today and sent them on there way with love and they continue to return and reappear ever reminding us they are always with us is what I choose to believe. I have wanted to have a conversation with you about experiences such as this. I know I've had things like this happen also and choose to believe I carry pieces of them and knowing they are in my heart always is comforting.

I love these moments that are not as painful as they once were. Sometimes when we need there love and to feel there presence they appear in miraculous little ways.

I know they will always continue to bring and show you there love.

I am also in a time of anniversary of losses right now. I've acted out a bit not placing the "root" of things. Perhaps I've said too much right now... Thanks for sharing this, I feel it in so many ways too!

Love to you honey!
28th-May-2008 03:05 am (UTC)
It was such an incredibly powerful thing.

I love you too, Deby!
27th-May-2008 10:23 pm (UTC)
I choose to believe that those we love remain with us, so long as we remember them. Your insight is absolutely beautiful.
28th-May-2008 03:06 am (UTC)
I thank you, love!
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