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BACK DOOR BOY IN A FRONT DOOR WORLD
OUTSIDE OF SOCIETY - THAT'S WHERE I WANT TO BE
I am so unbelievably tired 
12th-Jun-2005 11:46 pm
Me & D
This has been quite a long weekend. Today has not been made easier by the fact that I went to a house party last night outside of my usual antisocial form and ran into friends I had not seen in years. I got the chance to reconnect with them, laugh about old times and rehashed old losses, in particular friends we have all lost along the way. It was a celebratory evening, so rather than mourning those losses we spoke of them matter of factly in a very deliberate way.

Did I mention that I completely tied one on? I haven't drank that much in a LONG time. After the six pack of Honey Brown that I literally sucked down like it was water, I decided to walk back to the house and fix myself the first in a succession of scotch and sodas. Apparently I was on the blended scotch tasting tour, as I recall having Johnnie Walker Red, Dewar's, & Chivas. I prefer Glenlivet, but none was available, and therefore I stuck with the blends - which were fine for me. Sleep last night was very restless and I managed to get precious little - something I hope to make up for tonight.

My beloved got his much sought after and well earned laptop this morning after a tedious and difficult waiting time, which means that I have inherited the computer he built a while back that the laptop replaced. It's so swank, I want to love it and kiss it and stroke it's hard drives. Ridiculously fast, TONS of GB for space, and a full Gig of RAM - which I've never had before. I've named the computer Ripley and the external hard drive Newt. And yes, when the dog came in to sniff the new computer I roared at her "Get away from her you BITCH!" *smirk*

This morning the entire house of humans (excluding myself, of course) vacated in favor of Disney World until next Monday. I have the entire house to myself. Tomorrow I shall awake and make myself some coffee, read the newspaper uninterrupted, and play loud soul music while I clean up the house. I cannot have vacation down time in a dirty house, so tomorrow I shall clean it up a bit until I feel like being lazy and not doing anything I don't want to do. I will take long naps, write, watch documentaries, read, and relish my time in quiet solitude. As for now, I'm tired of data transfer, program installation, and generally just being awake.
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13th-Jun-2005 01:04 pm (UTC)
No foolin'! And to do so with dif juz playing in the background, and mocking Foxnews with the mute on, adlibbing their lines - as I do so often. "A disturbing new study today reveals that Godless, fornicating, heathen Americans are eating Christian babies at an ever growing rate in response to the Conservative-led efforts to rid out Judicial system of Liberal Activist Judges - for more on this shocking story, we go now to our reporter in the field, Prahithba Soon-Yi Baker Hernandez..."
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13th-Jun-2005 01:05 pm (UTC)
Me too, you should've seen him when we walked out of the store, it was precious.
13th-Jun-2005 04:45 am (UTC)
Healing is another benefit of talking about old friends lost. I am glad to hear you got a chance to do this with others you have re-connected with. As for tying one on...shouldn't we all at one time or another? LOL.

Glad to hear the other half is back, and your tomorrow sounds like mine, except replace soul with trantric and chants and voila!

Go rest and I look forward to getting to know you even more.

Love, Light, and Laughter, Vesta Morgaine
13th-Jun-2005 01:09 pm (UTC)
Being a bit older now and having had more time to process my grief over these people, I have also come to accept that there is a time and a place, you know? Being at a house party is not the time or place to have an impromoptu memorial, it makes things uncomfortable and ruins the moood and purpose for the gathering.

I don't drink much, I rarely ever have more than two drinks anyway - and even that is a relatively rare occurrance. I've had coffee, I'm about to do some more work on the computer before getting too heavily involved in anything else.
13th-Jun-2005 04:55 pm (UTC)
You have a point there on the house party timing of it. Well I hope you're day goes wonderful! *sips on her own coffee*

Love, Light and Laughter, Vesta
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13th-Jun-2005 01:09 pm (UTC)
Tease.
13th-Jun-2005 05:20 am (UTC)
I am happy to hear you celebrated the ones that you have lost. I too celebrate the fact that I *had* so many loved ones even though they are gone. Many people do not know that kind of love.

My cousin Christopher was only 28 when we lost him to AIDS. He was a light of wonderful human kindness, talent and love. I am honored to have had 28 wonderful years of his presence and light in my life. He is one life I celebrate.

A line from the song "Vincent" always reminds me of those the world does not cherish or understand who so often leave us much too soon. The line is; "The world was never meant for one as beautiful as you."

Glad you got your laptop, and I look forward to reading more of your posts.

Christina

13th-Jun-2005 09:46 am (UTC)
I've named the computer Ripley and the external hard drive Newt. And yes, when the dog came in to sniff the new computer I roared at her "Get away from her you BITCH!" *smirk*


One of the few movies in which the sequel was better than the original...and then came Winona Ryder...*cringe*
13th-Jun-2005 01:10 pm (UTC)
I concur wholeheartedly!

My doG, I cannot get over how magically delicious that icon is. *adjusts*
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13th-Jun-2005 01:15 pm (UTC)
It's not really that I'm antisocial, it's more that people here associate being social with going out to bars and clubs, which I'm not at all keen on. I tend to get in fights in those kind of environments, which is never really a good thing. Much like rape is no laughing matter, unless you're raping a clown. And I'm coulrophobic, so figure that one out.
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13th-Jun-2005 01:50 pm (UTC)
As have I, but then again I'd rather dive off the Empire State building headfirst into a thumbtack than follow "the cool crowd". The only exception that will get me to go "out" will be to see six10steve spinning somewhere at a DJ gig. THAT I'm really looking forward to, to be there with him as he's doing his thing and supporting him living his dream. Being that I live an hour and change away from him and so far the gigs he's had have been in conflict with our ability to travel, it hasn't happened yet - but I'm looking forward to being able to watch him spin and think "You see that gorgeous man up there rocking your face? THAT'S MY BOY!" Otherwise, I rather enjoy being a homebody.
13th-Jun-2005 01:50 pm (UTC)
Well SOMEONE had a good weekend! :-)
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