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What The Hell Is WRONG With Me? 
28th-May-2002 06:18 am
Things are good for the most part, but I'm just at an utter loss for why I feel like crying and just breaking down some of the time.

I woke up in the WORST mood. All I want to do is crawl into a hole and roll up into a little ball. I've gone to sleep and woken up to Damien for the past two days, and this morning I wake up on my own.

It makes me feel completely vulnerable to admit this, to say nothing of shit scared, but I literally hurt when he's not around. He left to go home last night and I should have gone right to sleep - I was dog tired - and instead I stayed up for another hour at least.

I've never, EVER been this completely mad for someone who took the time to give it back. I should be completely happy all of the time. What is wrong with me?
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28th-May-2002 05:14 am (UTC) - Been there...
Babe - I completely understand. I'll give you 3 options for why you feel this way, you take your pick. Either a) you're scared of this relationship because nothing has ever been this good before, b) you're in love, or c) both. When I felt this way, it was both. And yes it was Jared. I still feel that way sometimes.


BTW - I'll be walking with you guys tonight if you go.
28th-May-2002 07:21 pm (UTC)
jude..i can honestly say i know how you feel..only difference is, you actually GET to wake up with him..i experienced waking up with Mandy a few times, and it was the greatest thing ever..

I've never, EVER been this completely mad for someone who took the time to give it back. I should be completely happy all of the time. What is wrong with me?
heh..i know this feeling all too well..in the past, i've always easily been able to find things wrong with girls, and i'd hold it against them..Mandy, on the other hand, is different..i can't find ANYTHING wrong with her, and it makes me feel uncomfortable..so, it's ME making me feel this way..some of the things she's done for me i've never had done before, not even by my parents..yet, there's still something that scares me..you're lucky that you're close enough to damien to let him know how you feel..i live too far away to always have her shoulder to lean on..and it bloody sucks!@#! someone needs to find me an apartment and a job in columbus..PLEASE!@ anyway, i can't explain why love sucks ass..

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